Saturday, December 7, 2013

Top 10 Desert Island Shows

I'm riffing, just a little bit, off of a song from the musical, HIGH FIDELITY--which is only appropriate, since I've been in that show twice...and it is on my list.

I was thinking, last night, as I was trying to fall asleep about all of the shows I've been in over the years--and what I discovered was that I couldn't even think of the names of all the shows I've been in over the years. There are some shows I can recall only flashes of detail--and only a couple people from the cast...the mind. It is a terrible thing.

However, there are some shows that are still so vivid to me that I believe (at times) I could still be performing them today (if age weren't a factor). These shows were life-affirming, for me--some were life-changing, but all were pivotal moments in my stage career, and have helped to define who I see myself as an Artist.

I'll recount them, here, in chronological order--because there is no way I could ever say that one was my favorite, and one was my least favorite. These are ALL my favorite, and all for very different reasons. Actually, they are all very different plays (some are musicals)--so, there is no comparing them anyway.

They are, quite simply, the highlights of my stage date.

#1. HOUSE OF BLUE LEAVES (Bananas), by John Guare, with Stray Dog Theatre. This was a break-out opportunity, given to me by Artistic Director, Gary Bell. I will forever be grateful to Gary for giving me this opportunity--because it was HUGE for me, at the time. I had just discovered Viewpoints and Suzuki actor training, and was beginning to have a revelation about myself as an actor inside my own body--and what that meant as part of the story moving through each scene. Portraying Bananas afforded me incredible explorative opportunities, and I have always felt like I really understood Bananas from the inside out, almost immediately. (might have something to do with the insane way in which I was raised, and the borderline madness that had loomed in my life for many years already at that time). Not everyone likes HOUSE OF BLUE LEAVES, but there were many who had come to the show not liking it, and left feeling as if they had seen something they now liked. I don't know if my Bananas had anything to do with that, but I like to think that it did. And, I absolutely adored everyone with whom I shared that stage. Each actor was incredible, and it will always be what I consider the first show that put me on the map.

#2. FAMOUS MONSTERS (Morgan), by Margeau Baue Steinau, in collaboration with Rachel Jackson and B. Weller, with HotCity Theatre's Greenhouse. Oh...where do I begin? Unless you know me, or were a member of the audience--you will not recognize this show, but for me, it was a once-in-a-lifetime, life-altering/affirming experience. The play was born out of a time in my life that is beyond most people's comprehension, and the poetry that I wrote at the time in order to keep from eating a "copper-tipped-lead-head." We performed during the Halloween season, which was immensely appropriate. And? I played Morgan, who was actually me. My (now 18 year old daughter) played a ghost-child--and I don't think there has ever been (or ever will be) a more cathartic artistic experience. Sadly, it was during that production when I burned several bridges--many of which were beyond repair, even years later. I'd like to say that if given the choice, I would have chosen relationships over this show--but, I can't. This show was just a final piece in healing from a time in my life that nearly killed me...and even though I am sad that I did the things I did that burned the bridges that I burned--I really healed a LOT during that show, and I think it blew some people's minds. Also, there were people from that insane time in my life who came to see the show--and it helped them heal, too. Pivotal. What I'd love to do is to rework it, and have it produced again. I'd really like to see what this show is all about from the other side of the footlights. (this play was nominated for a Kevin Kline Award in the new works category)

#3. BLEACHER BUMS (Rose), by The Organic Theatre Company, with Hydeware Theatre. This was, perhaps, one of the most technically challenging plays I have ever been a part of! Not only did we have to create the world of the play...the world of the play was at a baseball game that we were supposed to be watching--and, sometimes we even had to know EXACTLY what was happening on the field (in the audience) and all be seeing the precisely same thing at the precisely same moment. I got to work with some REAL pros on this show (all of whom remain some of my favorite people to this day). It was a play about relationships--and baseball--and it was seriously a live or die situation on stage every night. Also, I sprayed my hair silver/gray to play Rose, and this was one of the first shows where people didn't recognize me after the show. There have been several of those (all on this list)--and that is my favorite kind of theatre...the kind where I become so lost in the character I am living on stage that audience members (and sometimes family) don't recognize me at all.

#4. SONNETS FOR AN OLD CENTURY (multiple roles/ensemble), by Jose Rivera, with Slightly Askew Theatre Ensemble (SATE). This was the first collaborative production by Slightly Askew Theatre Ensemble--combining movement and sound to create not only a cohesive story, but the set itself. We produced this show with the understanding that every monologue was part of a greater moment ("the moment just before the moment just after something HUGE")--and we all became the set/props/extras in each other's monologues, creating a whole. This is the only piece of theatre I have ever been a part of that was, without a shadow of a doubt, its own, living, breathing organism. We went places in that show I had never even dreamed possible--and it was because we were not only rehearsing together, but we were an ensemble of Artists who were training together on a regular basis prior to and during the rehearsal process. This was also the 2nd time I was able to share the stage with my (now 18 year old) daughter--there have been 4 times...and 3 of them are on this list. Sonnets will always be a reminder of what it is that I set out to create when I gave artistic birth to Slightly Askew Theatre Ensemble (SATE).

#5. WOMEN'S MINYAN (Tovah), by Naomi Ragen, with New Jewish Theatre. This was a show that I found myself completely immersing myself into my preparation--I even began dressing like an observant, Orthodox Jewish woman--which is interesting to me now, since my spiritual life has taken such a turn that most people just assume I am an Orthodox Jewish woman because of the connections I make which seem to most to be Jewish. I wonder, often, if my seeking didn't begin during this play. It was a cast of only women, and the power that we created on that postage stamp sized stage every night was palpable. I can still recall specific moments with each actress--and it felt like a very important piece of theatre to be a part of. They've all felt important--even the ones that most would agree were crap--but this one felt different important, if that makes any sense. My character, Tovah, was the "mikveh lady," which often has me chuckling privately I am someone that others come to for assistance with doing their first mikveh. Sort of like Art whispering the possibility of things to come in life...(this show was nominated for a Kevin Kline Award in the ensemble category--and won in a tie)

#6. KINDERTRANSPORT (Helga), by Diane Samuels, with New Jewish Theatre. Where do I even begin with this play? First of all--it was a cast full of both UNIVERSALLY respected and adored actors, relative newcomers to the scene...and me. Directed by Doug Finlayson, we were able to create what will always be one of the greatest productions of live theatre in my career. There are moments from this play that I still reflect upon to this day--moments where we literally reached across decades on stage and had authentic "moments" together. And, when I came out in the 2nd Act (post concentration camp), my own father didn't recognize me--he thought another actress had taken on the role for this transformation (and he is a consummate professional actor himself). The research I did for this show was excruciating and horrible...but what came of it all remains one of the most beautiful creations I have ever been a part of as an artist. (nominated for a Kevin Kline Award in the category of ensemble...and won in a tie; won the RFT's "Best Of..." in the category of ensemble theatre: "Although these three veteran actresses  [Kari Ely, Kat Singleton, and,] were rarely onstage together — and although their various plot lines were 40 years apart — because these three were so in sync with the story they were telling, they shared the dramatic load as if they were runners in a long-distance relay, passing the baton to one another from scene to scene." I don't often quote reviews--I NEVER read reviews during a production, EVER...but seeing this months later felt amazing.)

#7. 4.48 Psychosis (ensemble), by Sarah Kane, with Slightly Askew Theatre Ensemble (SATE). This show was another life-changing piece of theatre for me, in that this play basically has no character delineation, and no line assignment, so...basically, director, Pamela Reckamp (and sometimes the actors) had to figure it all out herself--by literally crawling into the mind of a woman (the playwright, some people believe this was her suicide note) and creating personae herself. And that's what she did. And, because we were an ensemble company who all spoke the same verbal and phyiscal language--we created...this piece of theatre (that the Psychoanalytic Society of St. Louis--had they not come the final weekend--would have urged EVERYONE in that field to attend this show, because they felt that we had captured the disease of Bi-Polar so perfectly). This show was EXHAUSTING--there were literally times on stage where I was just convulsing (as one of the voices in her head)--and then there was the subject matter. Dark. Funny...but, ultimately, tragic. However--because our director had such an incredible vision, even the final, darkest moment...had some hope. It is almost a production I still cannot find a way to articulate. It was just...visceral. I like visceral theatre.

#8. The Wild Party (Queenie), by Andrew Lippa, with New Line Theatre. I'm not sure I have words for this. The role of Queenie was sort of a role of a lifetime for me...and I considered retiring completely after this show closed--I felt like, "how do I EVER do another role in another show, when I have done THIS with these people?" And I'm not shitting you. I SERIOUSLY considered this--and for the longest time, I thought I HAD retired. I felt that amazing about doing that show--and if I weren't in the physical shape I am in now (most of the time)--I would still be doing this show with that cast, if anyone would let me. I have to say that living as Queenie on stage for a month was the best time I've EVER had on stage--that ensemble cast was beyond AMAZING!!! You could have no idea. Not even if you sat in the audience and were blown away, I assure you, you didn't even get a percentage of how incredible it was that they did what they did every night!!! And the band? OMG--you have no idea! We lost our music director during tech week, and the director, Scott Miller, had to take over that in addition to everything else, and play in the band every night (although, I must say--Scott is one of my dearest friends, and this was a scary role to take on--I came out in the first number in my underwear...)--so knowing he was back there every night, and how much he loves me...I felt safe to soar, because I knew he had my back. Literally. I showed my ass to the band every night within the first 1 minutes of that show. Within the first 5 minutes of the show I was raped, and then there was the hot, steamy sex scene during which the ensemble moved our bed around the stage while know. To have been given THAT opportunity? Well, I did just say that it was such a highlight that I seriously considered never doing anything ever again...

#9. HIGH FIDELITY (Marie LaSalle), by David Lindsay-Abaire, Amanda Green, and Tom Kitt, with New Line Theatre. Twice. I've done this show TWICE! And I would do it a 3rd time if I didn't know that it would be ridiculous for me to do that--LOL! And when I signed on to do it the 2nd time, which was a few years after the 1st time, I thought, "Oh--I've done this before...easy-peasy!" Riiiigggghhhhhtttt. The thing of it is--I am not who I was when I became Marie LaSalle the first time--and this time, I felt like I really, truly nailed her (which I know would make her really happy...right before making her really neurotic). Both casts were amazing--the leads remained the same in both--and are 2 of my favorite New Liners, and I was able to just completely lose myself in the show both times. So much fun, because it was SO good! In my second foray as Marie, I got to use my hair as a prop--now tell me that is not fantabulous!

#10. ELEEMOSYNARY (Dorothea), by Lee Blessing, with Slightly Askew Theatre Ensemble (SATE). This was the 4th time I've had the opportunity to share the stage with my (now 18 year old) daughter...and, one of my dearest friends. A 3 woman paly, a memory play, spanning which it made comPLETE sense for my own daughter to play my grand-daughter. Directed by a DEAR friend, who is now the Managing Director of my beloved SATE--and sharing the stage with my daughter, and a dear friend--and inCREDIBLE Artist, who is now the Artistic Director of SATE--I was as close to heaven as I think I've ever been. There were moments during each performance when I'm pretty sure I wasn't there at all...I was transported by the words, and watching and listening to the performances of both my daughter and my friend. There aren't words. I'll never do it justice. But I CAN say...It expanded my soul, and it helped me to find closure with my own mother who had recently died.  I am so grateful to have been given such an experience...and I can't imagine any way in which I'll ever be able to come close to duplicating it--so it sure does make my soul sing.

I've been so blessed. There was one year when I think I did something like 7 or 9 shows...I was never home. Most of the time I didn't even remember who I was--and my family only knew me as this person who only ever muttered to herself (I remember my small son, at the time, asking friom the back seat in a very worried voice--while I was running lines by myself in the car--"Mommy...are you talking to yourself?")

These days, I pick my shows VERY carefully. I am choosey. My time is precious to me...and I have definitely had my stage time. Now I look for shows that move my soul and/or are filled with people who bring me joy. But if I never got on another stage--I would always be able to say that I did THESE shows. Right now I can't even find my resume--LOL--I can't remember the names of some of the shows I've been in...but I did THESE, and if anyone wants to remember me for them--I will be honored and humbled. This is my body of work.

Friday, December 6, 2013

Letting It All Hang Out

Haven't done that for a while. Worried I might have forgotten how...people will say "it's just like riding a bike," but the last time I got back on a bike after not having ridden one in years, I went promptly over the handle-bars on a busy street in front of LOTS of people.

This should be fun!

Everyone is bitching and moaning about last night's TELEVISED LIVE PERFORMANCE OF THE SOUND OF MUSIC...and though I won't get into my initial gut responses to the majority of those people, I WILL get into what I think is the cause of my underlying gut response (which has lost me several facebook friends--LOL).

I live in a pretty small professional market. Tiny, actually, in comparison to Chicago, New York, or even Cincinnati (I'm told). A very incestuous, very close-knit (keep your enemies close) "professional" market. So tiny, in fact, that we haven't had a legitimate Theatre Critic in over 20 years. We've got reviewers--oh, we've got them in bucket loads. Mostly people who either take time out of their own performing schedule to review other shows, or people who work (or want to work) somewhere in this community. And there's lots of plot/story-line regurgitation, lots of commentary on the history of a piece (where it's note-worthy)--and very little actual discussion of the actual performance (aside from tech)--other than than the requisite fawning over all of the "popular" kids everyone loves to love because everyone actually hates them so much.

What do I know from other markets? Perhaps it is the same (to one degree or another) everywhere, but I can only speak to what I know here.

The fact of the matter is, this market likes particularly to fawn all over new, pretty people, and especially over people who come from other places to perform on our professional stages. As a matter of fact, in a couple of notable theatres, if you don't have a NYC address, you're not even considered legit--and it is unlikely you will ever land a leading role.

Fine. That's fine. They do what they do--and for the most part, it's really not bad. But what it has done, is it has trained a certain audience to believe that the REST of the "small, professional" theatres around town are not actually legit because they do not cast from NYC, or LA, or Chicago...or from wherever else isn't here. And that's bullshit.

Another problem is...because we haven't had an actual Theatre Critic here for over 20 years, there are some who pass for super stars...who just. aren't. There are shows that have been cast with the old, standard, presentational actors who do nothing more than a bigger version of themselves in every role--and everyone laps them up like warm cream fresh from the cow. Puh-leeease. Oh--and don't get me wrong--I've buttered them up and fawned all over them just like everyone else, because that's what we do (and how we survive?)--but it still sucks. (Oh, and don't get me wrong--I know for a fact that I've been mis-cast before and that people have fawned all over me because they felt it was somehow necessary--so I am not suggesting in the least that I am not guilty on both sides of the bet--I'm just sayin'.)

I think part of what I'm actually MOST pissed-off about, though, is something entirely different. I've worked in this market for over 20 years (I've batted that around a LOT in this post...and now I just feel really, really old), and I've made contributions. No. I mean, I have really made contributions. Let's see...I bet I can recount some of them here. Since I'm pretty much on the fringe of it all (wabbling towards extinction? Who knows...probably after this...), I have very little to lose.

The new rage for ensemble theatre? Yeah. I helped forge that trend. The company I started was based entirely upon the ensemble model.

Active, ongoing theatrical training for professionals (particularly in the area of movement and physical theatrical training)? Yup. Did that. Mostly only women felt they had anything left to learn (minus the ones being fawned over, mind you).

Collaborative theatre movement in our market. Bingo! Yeah. I thought it would be cool to collaborate with artists from all sorts of different mediums. Seemed like a great idea...until we mostly found ourselves collaborating with each other. Now we've got all sorts of stuff, including a fabulous fringe festival---headed up by an alumn of the ensemble theatre, no less.

And, just to be petty, our original (still in use) logo. It really is petty--I mean, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, right? Sure it is. I keep telling myself that.

But just so we're clear: even though this sounds very much like an artistic, ego-maniacal break-down (which, on some level, I assure you--it IS)--that's not even my point. My point is this: I HATE IT. I hate that I have this part of me who is SO petty, and so hurt, and feeling so forgotten, and so abandoned. I hate that person. Detest her. She is ugly, and pathetic, and in serious need of a good bitch-slap upside the head. She is angry and nursing festering wounds because she's never been lauded for any of her contributions--not once. Ever. And that has, apparently, hurt.

And that's why I'm here. What was it all ever really about, if at the end of it all, I'm left here being pissed-off about how under-appreciated/under-acknowledged I was? It was all EGO--period. End of story. Disgusting, un-artistic, self-serving twat. That's not art. That's got nothing to DO with being creative--and the very least, it is about taking more than it is about giving or sharing...and who the Hell do I think I am?

I think the disaster I am feeling right now is because I am seeing it all for the complete and utter bullshit that it was--and I am horrified. What if I'm not even an "Artist" at all? What if it was ONLY about feeding my ego, and this was just the arena I happened into?

I've had my time on stage--so now I pick and choose VERY carefully, because my time is truly precious. But all of the things I think I ever created? I'm not so sure about that. Today I am questioning EVERYTHING. I know that I have (at least) been a part of creating really good things...but I am questioning, now, my intention. My consciousness. The seeds I planted.

I look at what has brought me to this moment--and all I can see is an egotistical desire to be noticed--to be "the one." Somewhere. It was suggested to me, today--during my break-down--that I leave people behind. The funny thing is...I'm the one who always feels left behind. How crazy is that? What that says to me, is that the person who accused me of leaving them behind was dead-balls-on...I feel abandoned, because I abandon things. That sucks. I'm left standing here alone feeling sorry for myself--when the whole time, what I've been doing is leaving a wake of people feeling abandoned by ME. And the "Artist" in me--if there really even is such a thing in me--what does that say about the things I think I've created?

All of the things for which I feel I should have been lauded...are just things that I did to make myself feel better about me, and then I found the next better thing to make myself feel better.

So here we are. Sitting on the precipice of...I don't know what. Self discovery? Sitting here in the dark listening to music, feeling VERY alone, and knowing that it is all of my own doing. I want to emerge with some new, more elevated consciousness/reality--but I'm just going to end up walking out into the snow to my car, hoping beyond hope that the dogs have a parade when I arrive home (as they are prone to do).

And all of my ranting? I've burned bridges. Several, today--of that, I'm sure. The change will happen when I walk over that next bridge...and I haven't left someone behind. I guess that's the lesson. I couldn't really care any less about The Sound of Music if I put effort into it...but this has felt cathartic.

I think I'm going to like being back in the blogosphere.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Make It Work

Rehearsals have been wonderful--it is such a joy to be working with such talented actors, and musicians. We finished blocking the show last week, and by Thursday night, I was already transported to another dimension watching the other actors discover new and amazing layers to their characters. What an experience! It's amazing to me what four years can do to expand an actor's tool box. 

Interestingly, a couple of us have been battling allergies and illnesses for the past couple of weeks...and last week, my illness took a turn for the worse. I'd ignored the fact that I have developed allergies and allowed myself to get sick, which turned into bronchitis--and I wound up in Urgent Care needing a breathing treatment (the first I've ever had), and then wound up back in Urgent Care over the weekend with a fractured rib. PAINFUL!!! Now, this is probably my 5th rib injury in the past 4 years--I seem to have something going on in that area, but this is the most painful injury I've ever had. I have cracked a rib in the middle of my back, and there is just nothing I can do to escape the excruciating pain. I keep getting stuck in position and cannot move. If it weren't so painful, it would be funny. But, of course, it hurts worse when I laugh, so I try to just ignore myself.

Thankfully the bronchitis is all but cleared up (finished my very first ever round of "Z-pack", yesterday, along with a round of prednisone), so that's great...but this rib injury seems to get worse by the minute. A dear friend took me for a treatment at The St. Louis Salt Room in Maplewood during my lunch hour, today...and I was actually pain free for 30 whole minutes--the first pain free time I've had in 4 days. I will go back tomorrow and Wednesday to continue treatment and am still waiting for my doctor (who has been out-of-town) to return my call.

This could be a whole new dimension for Marie LaSalle--LOL! She is 4 years older, and apparently a mess. Somehow, I will find a way to make it work, because that is what we do. Period. I've performed with pneumonia; I've performed hours after the tragic death of a beloved pet; I've performed immediately after having my eye split open on stage; we take what we have, and we create something new with it. It's a lot like life...but better!

Tonight we run Act 1 off-book. That may well be as painful as my broken rib...we'll see. Whatever it is, we will make it work. We always do. Not only that, but we make it work better--and therein lies the reward.

Love and Light!

Monday, April 16, 2012

Front Row Seat

One of the coolest things about being Marie LaSalle in New Line Theatre's 2008 production of High Fidelity was that I got to watch 90% of the show through the audience bleachers--so every night, I essentially had the best front row seat in the house! Marie was very much a "walk-on" character in that production, and my bonus was that I got to watch an incredibly cool show every night.

This time 'round, I have been invited into the beginning number (in addition to Marie's songs Ready to Settle and Terrible Things, her foray into Rob's mind as one of "The Bitches" in Conflict Resolution, and the final number Turn the World Off), so I'll have a bit more stage time...which really means that I'll have less time to admire the production from afar, as I will be participating in it. Therefore, I am savoring every moment that I am in rehearsal, because I have the esteemed privilege of listening to some of St. Louis's finest voices, while watching some of St. Louis's finest actors, and will soon get to observe some incredible choreography, as well! It's easy to get lost in the coolness...

I sometimes feel giddy listening to the group numbers that I am not a part of--hearing the incredible harmonies, getting lost in the outstanding solo work, knowing all the while that these have just been rehearsals to learn the music--the REAL knock-out performances haven't even begun, yet, and I'm already blown away.

I've been fighting a cold (or whatever) for the past several days (JUST DISCOVERED MUCINEX DM--OMG, why have I not taken this stuff before now???), so my voice has been for shit...but even so, when surrounded by so many wonderful voices, my own sick and healing voice has been so thrilled to even try to blend with the others. I'm at times completely stunned by the quality of the sounds I am hearing. Really good stuff!

One thing I love about New Line is that the bar is always being raised. Every. Show. The 2008 production was amazing (I have mentioned that we sold out all but one performance, right? Which included selling out a 4th of July show...just sayin')--but once again, the bar has been raised, and I find myself amidst a cast of stellar performers who just blow me away!

And I get to sit there and listen to them sing all night. AMAZING! I love what I do. Every day, whether it is at the bookstore from 10:00 - 6:00 or at rehearsal from 6:30 - 10:00...I am exactly where I want to be: in the best Front Row Seat imaginable!

Bli ayin hara!


Friday, April 13, 2012

Ready to Settle

It's been 2 years since I was last on stage (The Wild Party, also with New Line Theatre)--and I must admit, even though Marie LaSalle's one big number is a favorite of mine...I spent the better part of the day, yesterday, freaking out about having to sing it again in front of people I absolutely believe are some of the most talented artists in town.

Everyone always says, "It's just like riding a bike!" The fact of the matter is, though, that the first time I got back on a bike after having not ridden one in awhile, I managed to propel myself head-first over the handle-bars on a very busy Saturday morning on Delmar in The Loop. Had to walk the bike home, bloodied and bruised (while surely the wall of freaks--most of whom were my friends at the time--were laughing heartily at my expense). This is, perhaps, not the best metaphor to use when trying to convince me to do something...

As Dick would say, however, "It's no problem."

Over the past 3 years I have been learning a lot about what's real and what is not...and becoming certain that uncomfortable situations are actually opportunities to uncover incredible blessings, and this was no different.

I have the esteemed honor of having the sensational Sarah Porter as my back-up singer (last time around it was the amazing Lori White), and our voices just seem to have been created to blend together. And, she is absolutely hilarious, which is something I appreciate almost more than anything else! We both had our moments of struggle, but in the end, it was clear that not only is this a beautiful ballad, but its humor sneaks up on the audience to help form a wonderful blend of beautiful and silly, accented nicely with a fairly large dose of neurotically scary. These two women will be familiar in the most disturbing way...and I LOVE that!

What I think shocked me the most, though, was when Scott gave us a "Pop Quiz" on the first song we'd learned Monday night--and I actually knew my part! I mean, it was familiar, and I could actually follow along, and had a pretty good idea of what the sound of the whole things was supposed to be. Honestly? My music education was long enough ago that I'm not even going to use a number to define the time period (I'm sure you can guess), and it has not been something that I've kept up with in any sort of serious way. There are times when I look at the score with all of those notes and the 3 different lines of lyrics, and I'm not even sure which section I'm supposed to be using. I am much better at hearing the music than reading it, which (when surrounded by so many hugely talented musicians) can be very intimidating!

BUT!!! During New Line's first production of High Fidelity, I didn't come on stage until my own song--so I would watch the show from behind the audience, and the opening number was always one of my very favorites (you'll hear me say that about almost every song in this show, actually; whatever song is being performed at the moment is my favorite song). I loved to watch the energy on stage and listen to the incredible harmonies...and I guess maybe it paid off. Last night as we went over the opening number a couple of times, I found myself going back to that place in my brain when I had watched/listened to that opening number in 2008 (probably about 18 times)--and I knew it in my bones.

It was pretty cool.

In any case, I have a healthy dose of humility, combined with an incredible passion for this show and these people--and I am not Ready to Settle for anything less than giving 100% of myself to this production. It is so good to be back in the rehearsal process, and I cannot think of another situation I would rather be in, right now, than this one!

Love and Light,

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

High Fidelity 2.O

And...we're back.

Thank God!

I loved being a part of New Line Theatre's production of High Fidelity as Marie LaSalle back in 2008....and am even more excited to be a part of New Line Theatre's 2012 production!

Marie is so fuckingly neurotic and fabulous--how could I NOT want to revisit her? We were able to find some really funky nuances the first time 'round, but this time I intend (with the help of Scott Miller) to truly tap into her neurosis and funky-life-style.

Marie is essentially a 'walk-on' character in this musical, which is such a dream-come-true for an actress who has (for all intents and purposes) abandoned her day-to-day life in the theatre (having recently resigned as Artistic Director of Slightly Askew Theatre Ensemble (moving to a role on the Board of Directors). 'Walk-on' roles are a dream-come-true for artists like me...

I find myself in the company of a truly talented and dedicated cast and hope only to rise to the occasion. It is a lofty goal, I am sure, but one I am confident I can achieve. Everyone is completely supportive and enthusiastic---and I have so much source material and support--I can only have certainty in a most wonderful outcome.

Thursday night I have the opportunity to reconnect with Marie (and her back-up singer, Sarah Porter--re-inventing this role for New Line)--and I have every confidence that we will have an absolutely amazing time!

Love and Light!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Home Again, Home Again

My babies are all home...and I am absolutely tickled pink (or chartreuse, as the case may be).

Hub-O-Matic and I had the opportunity to practice being "empty-nesters" this week, and although we LOVE being alone and hanging out as a couple, we love being parents and having the whole family together even more. We are a laughing, happy, adventurous, wild family and it is crazy fun when we are all together. Don't get me wrong, HOM and I knock it out of the park as a couple, too, but there is something fantastic about our family dynamic.

Dinner tonight was exceptional--the laughter, the stories, the closeness...did I mention the laughter? HOM and I kept catching each other's eye across the table, and we knew: we are a family first and foremost. At our table sat our 3 children and my father--all inhabitants of our home. A multi-generational mosaic of beliefs, disciplines, interests, intellects, and it is wonderful. Our home is cozy and filled with life. It will still be a home when the children move out, but missing each of them will be something to overcome.

I genuinely pined for my kids last week. Hearing their voices on the phone made my heart race. I was thrilled that they had the opportunities to get out of town, but boy...I was not prepared for what being apart from them would do to me! I think it took me quite by surprise.

But they are home now! The bickering will start soon, I'm sure. They will once again resent being asked to help around the house and I will resent having to ask them to help--HOM will likely disagree about some parenting issue or another...but in the long run, that's all part and parcel of what makes this house a home.

Home again, home again...the best part of vacation was having the kids come home again.

Can't wait until Summer break!